"tell me if you wanna go again."

something for a friend. someone who i think i'll never see again.

i've been addicted to grouping values lately and focusing heavily on a focal point. it makes it easier for me to keep the background abstract and heavily implied! (and also allows me to just go wild on the brushstrokes)

"we used to worry about the simple stuff.
now it just seems like each news is worse than the last.
anyway, what do you want to drink?"

decided to try my hand at drawing a convenience store scene while applying what ive learned in adding depth in paintings. i guess this is a good place to start!

"Oh, and I'm afraid that's just the way the world works
It ain't funny, it ain't pretty, it ain't sweet
Oh, and I'm afraid that's just the way the world works
But I think that it could work for you and me
Just wait and see
It's not the end of the story"

This was made at a time the whole world was reeling from bad news after bad news, and was suffering from every horrible headline that was thrown at them. It was also a time when I was enountering some form of aimlessness and loneliness. Heck, I dont even remember how i made this now.

“cause you were the one thing i knew i couldn't lose
and i let you slip past me, and now im doomed”

At this time I still had really hard bouts of loneliness, and seeing by the lyrics, also echo brainrot. It was also an attempt at making paintings that look blurry (literally). Really gunning for that film camera look. I should've just bought one in real life, but that's cheating!

"back when i was living for the hope of it all."

This is where I had so much fun trying to replicate the film camera vibe. It also helps that the lighting sets the mood and allows a lot of the shadows to blend together. All the blur and the noise came together here. It was peak. I was one peak.

"for once, for once, for once, i get the feeling that I'm right where I belong
why am i the one always packin' up my stuff?"

It always seems so hard
At some point I have to be the one leaving the good times, or I have to call it a day on a good relationship. Things have to end. But I always find myself leaving instead of staying. And the worst part of it, I'd always feel alone. I'd be the only one.

"no alarms and no surprises, please"

There are times when everything just comes into a crescendo. This day was one of them. Being bored is tough, but sometimes its the peace we all wanted. Just let everything stop for a moment. Just let everything relax. Maybe we'd be a little bit more okay.

"you gotta get better, youre all that ive got."

There's always the morning after. I don't know how to describe that feeling. The moment when you finally fall asleep to get some rest after an emotionally heavy day. You wake up to a new feeling. Your thoughts are scattered all over the floor, so you take your time to gather them. The sun is up. The birds are chirping. The world moved forward. But you haven't. You're chained to a point in time, the last second when anything made sense. Its a drag to get yourself off the bed. It's a pain to stare at yourself in the mirror. The face you see isn't yours anymore. Maybe I did describe that feeling after all.